i am living in hell now.. there's nth else i can do but to wait.. i noe sorry cant help or do any good to ur hurt heart.. inside my mind, there was nothing much inside except for care.. i dunno how to express it.. i shld oso say im a person who cant express my feelings well.. tts probably why my 80% is gone..

at the moment i wanted to grab hold of the heart with little love, i knew there is a lot to be done and a lot to sacrifice.. i work towards my goal but it always seems so far.. im trying but emotions always come stronger.. wat else can i do than to seek ur forgiveness..

i would admit there is no way i could vent my anger.. it just pile up and topple at the most crucial time.. Sorry.. but I still LOVE You..

today i went for work again.. need to do deliveries again.. sianz.. then went to visit my grandma in the hospital.. she is rather well and rather talkative now.. feel happy for her.. find it difficult to concentrate on work today.. nevertheless, i completed all the work i need to do..

my uncle tio 4-D and gave each of our cousins $50.. wow.. good money for buying Xmas presents.. after dinner at home went to get a pair of contact lens.. tt's really brave of me (my eyes might get dry) but squash really need to use cos face mask difficult to find and of cos without spects is much more convenient..

tts all for today.. terrible day for me.. hope tmr will be better..

cya.. signing off..

talked more trash @ 9:29 PM

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