回想两年前的事。。。阿公在我大考时，离我而去。之前都没好好的对他，总是默默的嫌他在家里发呆，无所事事。可是当我知道他去世时，我心里感到非常的难过。我根本不能好好的应付考试。但我一直都没怪过任何人，毕竟失去亲人的损失比任何东西还来得大。

昨天从医院回来过后，我开始问我自己， 这一切是巧合还是都早已安排好的。 看到曾祖母躺在病床上时，我才愕然发现她已经快不行了。才两个星期， 这一切太快了吧！在我努力坑书时，曾祖母更是努力的与病魔搏斗。说真的， 看到她连手指都动不了时，我眼眶早已经湿透了。虽然我眼泪没落下，我的心已经痛到让我无法正常的呼吸。可是我叹气有用吗？我心里真的不希望在看到亲人离我而去。

两个月前，我们一家人才到文里楼餐馆为曾祖父庆祝大寿，那时看到健康的曾祖父和曾祖母，谁都不会料到这一切会发生的那么快。医生说，曾祖母的情况不太乐观。他们怀疑她因为肝出了问题，内出血无法自然阻止，导致血压急速下降，必须一直植入鲜血才能维持生命。现在一切都只能听天由命了。

当我以为最惨的是都已经发生了，没想到就连戒烟不久的外公也赵病魔缠身。他的肺无缘无故生了粒肿瘤。可是在仔细观察下，他的神经线也被另一颗肿瘤压着，导致他无法正常的走路。看着我从小到大的外公，想起为我修单车和陪我在乡村时度过的外公，我的泪再也不听我的使唤了。今天下午，我哭了。我知道外公会没事的，我知道。他为了开刀，特地注意饮食，就为了“顶那一刀”，我只能说，外公加油啊！

now.. i need to keep smiling! things go smoother tt way rite?

oh ya.. passed my Basic Theory test.. tts really fast.. hope to get my licence by the end of this year before i go marching in P. Tekong.. 10 April 2007.. anybody the same date as me? tag me..

cya.. signing off..

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thx for the concern! but i was just fed up sometimes when truthful words are the most hurting comments.. when things and ppl are so tense up, i just anyhow shoot my words from my mouth.. food goes into the mouth but trouble always comes out of my mouth.. wat else can i say? really.. i did not have the intention to compete.. no intention to hurt someone.. but i just find tt things may work better with changes made to it..

ya.. so wat else can i do than mugging? plan timetable.. with all the tuitions and things to do.. wah.. tts alot.. everyone is facing the same prob.. but the way of treatment is totally different.. why?

my family just came back a few hours ago from Hong Kong.. brother shared with me his wonderful experiences in disneyland and other fun places.. so envy!! i had to stay here and mug thou i was given the option to go.. parents nvr feel tt there is time for fun.. weird parents.. like to say, "can means can, cannot means cannot.. so can you?" being confident of myself, my ans would definitely be "YES!".. so can u imagine the reply? "then go Hong Kong la! study is not everything.. *im being hinted tt family is even more impt*" well.. in the end my decision was to stay to make myself feel better.. haha!!

tmr going for globalisation lecture and going to take my Basic Theory Test this friday.. lotsa things to do.. so dun complain le.. just chiong la! no time to think of no time le!!

cya.. signing off..

talked more trash @ 11:22 PM

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Title just said.. sometimes is good to shut my bloody mouth up..

Haze back..

Take care..

Signing off..

talked more trash @ 11:53 PM

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well.. last day of sch today.. seriously, not much feelings during the assembly.. cos i was thinking of my parents' flight.. they left singapore at 11am this morning.. they going to enjoy in Hong Kong while i mug in spore.. sianz..

took several pix but not as many as my last graduation day in GESS.. haha.. then we left for Suntec for lunch and buy Peifen's present.. then on the way to Jie Yan's hse, we go to the wrong bus stop.. then had to walk quite far then we took bus 80.. well.. then i had another interesting incident after Burger King incident where i had to confront unfriendly cashier..

then today i met an old Indian.. so unfriendly.. we are all toking behind the double decker bus then actually alot ppl was noticing us.. cos the bus was quiet with ALL THE LONELY PATHETIC TRAVLLERS WHO ARE OBVIOUSLY JEALOUS OF OUR COMPANY, we were the most noticeable ones.. then i had to walk to the back to let Connie hear a new song then the bus ride is supposed to be bumpy and i had to stablise myself without my hand cos i m holding my mp3 in one hand and the puch in the other! so i made a BONK sound which irritated the old Indian.. he stared at me.. i stared at him.. he tok to me but i couldnt hear him.. i removed one side of the headphone and i still couldnt hear him.. by then he was probably pissed by my "What!" face.. then i took of both sides and i could finally hear..

Indian: "why are u jumpuing around in the bus?!"

Me: "im trying to keep my balance wat!"

Indian: "balance balance.. must jump?!"

Me: "then wat u want me to do?? SORRY LA!!!!!!"

stared at me again.. nth to say and he turned back again.. well.. another guy who was irritated by us din turn back after the commotion.. heck them la.. wat is wrong with these LONERS? pathetic ppl who i dun care whether they are seniors.. so wat if im in half uniform.. im 18.. responsible for my own action.. find my trouble.. why some so hum until complain to school without being able to provide names? most prob they dun even dare to ask..

well.. some of them may think this is rude of me.. so uncivilised.. beg to differ ok? there are just somethings u cant hold back if someone is being more unfair to u.. tt's why my name is Justin.. i protect my own justice which i define it MYSELF.. lol..

cya.. signing off..

talked more trash @ 10:36 PM

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tmr will be our graduation day.. thinking of wat i have done this 1.5 years.. well.. i had laughters, complains, frens, great teachers, experiences tt i nvr had in my past education institution.. rather sad to leave NYJC.. i may not love this sch as much as GESS, but it definitely supported me thru my 1.5 years.. haha.. and of cos, this is where i found my frens..

not forgetting my experienced in IJC.. well.. first 3 mths there.. fun fun and still fun.. it is much more lively there than NYJC.. was a pity i couldnt stay there to complete my A levels.. well.. fated to be NYJC ghost after tmr anyway.. haha..

overall, all i need to say to NYJC is... I'm sincerely very grateful to You.. Thank You So Much!!!!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=lGcwilKp8ec

a very suitable song, but not a very suitable atmosphere.. lol.. Tank V.S. Gary.. who is higher in pitch??

went for GP tuition today.. booked consultation then went to the national lib to study after dinner at bugis.. then i had to rushed to buy mummy's birthday present.. her birthday is tmr.. but the whole family except me is leaving for Hong Kong Disneyland!! boo.. hate the feeling of being left out but i love being home alone.. wahahaha..

Sorry Jie Yan and Xin Yu.. it dun mean to flare at you 2.. thou not reversible but pls forgive me ok?? hee..

for now.. cya!! hope i can get a few nice pix up after tmr's graduation day!!

signing off..

talked more trash @ 10:33 PM

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ok.. first.. lets tok abt ytd.. ya.. went to national lib to study again.. met Amanda there.. small world huh.. then after tt met Xiying ang Ming Jue for pizza hut dinner.. dinner is sort of celebrate their belated birthday.. not all present but nvm la.. had lotsa laughter.. haha!!

on the way back they decided to take some funny pix.. die oso dun ask other ppl to take for us.. ended up with funny pix.. "stone" smile and half headless..

well.. the inverting button was pressed before taking the pix so is actually mirror image!!

why do i have a purple face?!?! so big so ugly!!!!

failed.. so might as well take "ghost face" pix.. ok.. i trying to be a ghost by biting my tongue.. where is Peifen?!?!?!

ok.. then night had a little fan.. other than tt had a good night.. consult Mr Tay phy.. first day out of so many days i finally stepped into the sch.. haha.. had a good 2 hr consultation and was so damn hungry.. ate my lunch at 1 plus and left for national lib to study again.. only this time went back grandma's hse for dinner!! hope grandpa's medical report will be a good one.. well.. he quit smoking and shldnt have anything inside lungs le lor.. pls pls pls...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IzO1mCAVyMw

all guys shld watch..

for now.. cya!!

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好。现在的我，真的真的不知道发生了什么事。 我什么都不知道， 什么也不解。 我只好。。。我担心，好奇，im just gonna... 屁啦！不关我的事， so just shut up! 我还能做什么？ 难道。。。

talked more trash @ 11:21 PM

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i cant study on sun!! no motivation.. body feeling weak.. lotsa energy.. but only can think of slacking.. why? can i skip sunday and have mon right after sat? haha.. only for this period of time ba..

woke up rather early and head to BBDC for my theory evaluation.. just pass only.. cos their pass grade is 90%.. anw, im qualified to take basic theory test! finally.. 1 step nearer to my driving license.. yeh!! booked my test on 20/10.. so near exams! am i crazy? yes! the test only 1 hr.. no studying required beforehand.. so might as well settle it soon.. so near my hse.. 10 mins only.. haha..

so overall.. i din study much.. had dinner at home and slacked all the way till now.. not much to update but going NLB to study tmr.. going to graduate soon.. sad sad.. but haven been going to sch for 1 week plus le.. seems like i have graduated.. lol.. but i have been studying.. not really slacking all the time ok? ok.. going off now..

cya.. signing off..

talked more trash @ 9:19 PM

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Let me explain why i feel so brilliant today.. haha.. first, i left home at 850am to national library.. went to study there.. but even before i reach CCK mrt station, the lrt wasnt moving! waited for 20 mins and decided to take a bus to the station since they kept saying "the train service will resume after 5 mins" sux lor.. i waited 20 mins!!! glad i did the right choice by taking the bus.. only 5 mins late.. my brain was brilliant by making this decision.. *dun sound smart but most remain in the lrt hoping the train will move after 5 mins..*

start studying only at 10 after i had a little breakfast and a cup of coffee in study lounge.. well.. the coffee works well and managed to maintain my focus level till abt 6pm? haha.. did abt 30 physics paper 3 long questions.. felt incredible.. but there are alot of doubts tt had to be cleared.. how to write a proper explanation.. i dun deduct marks on knowledge but rather wrong answering method.. haha.. of cos still lack of little knowledge.. but let me sound brilliant today alright?

then i had a quick dinner before i head to Bukit Batok Driving Centre.. well.. complete my enrolment.. paid a sum of money and had a one to one briefing cos i was the only one who enrol tonight.. lol.. after briefing the instructor recommend me to take the basic theory practice from 845pm to 1020pm.. 2 sessions to complete 4 booklet.. passed all and ready for the evaluation this sun morning.. hee.. brilliant cos my brain supposed to be dead after all the work i have done.

when i step into the practice room, it was all touch screen computers and i had to answer MCQs.. 4 booklets.. 265 questions.. no preparation.. no lessons.. nth at all.. new to the com, to the environment and people.. i managed to pass (90%) all 4 booklets.. well. it's just practice papers.. i still have a long way to go! brilliant! why? cos i nvr take up theory lessons! hee...



reached home.. saw this "Government Service" letter.. must be from the MINDEF.. sad to say.. i have got a PES B.. well.. with my wrist swollen every nowadays.. grading me as PES B with medical tt is 2 years old.. it's just unfair.. im gonna appeal!!! yes!! appeal.. i not going to risk my wrist during NS.. how i wish my wrist will be fine even before NS so i can qiong with new brothers in NS.. hope things go well.. brilliant? cos i thot of appealing thru NUH emergency unit after A Level.. cool huh? only when my hand is swollen.. hey.. my life is endangered when i can use my hand to even push myself away from danger.. hahahaha!! brilliant excuse!

alright.. before i end.. HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!

cya.. signing off..

talked more trash @ 11:09 PM

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